Monday, April 23, 2012

NIAW

It's NIAW (National Infertility Awareness Week)!!
 
Funny enough, I'm sitting on my couch in my sweats with excruciating cramps (TMI?).  My heart hearts more.  I let myself get my hopes up again this month.  Now I remember why I had previously convinced myself that we would never get pregnant "naturally".  I was ok with that.  I think I was in a good place.  Then that nasty hope crept in and broke my heart again.  I have such a hard time finding balance between having hope and getting my hopes up.  I need to find that place.

I have taken the opportunity several times today to recognize just HOW blessed I am.  I know that even if we were never able to have children (I KNOW that will not be the case), I would STILL be so, so, so blessed.  I have an incredible husband who loves me so much and works so hard.  We have a comfortable home.  We never go hungry.  We have the GOSPEL!  So, my message for NIAW is: don't ignore your blessings while facing infertility. 

I also wanted to share this gem with you.  This short post provides even more insight into the struggle with infertility.  We are all daughters of our Heavenly Father, and that matters more than anything else.

6 comments:

Rach said...

I had no idea what an important week this is! How great! Girl, i completely understand what you just said about the balancing act between Having Hope and Getting your Hopes Up. Sometimes it's just so hard not to. You are not alone. :-) Thinking of you. We are so blessed. Life really is so rich each day, because of the gospel!

Liz Johnson said...

This message is so true and so applicable to everybody. We all need to recognize and appreciate our blessings in face of our trials. And I'm so sorry that your hopes were crushed. I can't imagine the constant reminders of the hard things in life. Your optimism and hope and faith really, really inspires me!

Katie said...

I LOVED that post you linked to. I never really thought about it like that but while I was reading it I kinda had a realization about some of the feelings I had with the miscarriages and this put into words what I couldn't. Thanks for sharing.

Marie said...

I really liked the post you linked to. It is so easy to fall into the trap of losing self-confidence and self-worth in all of this. I hope you have some good ice cream handy to treat yourself because you deserve it!

Cambria said...

Oh Steph, I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this every month. You are amazing and strong. You will be the cutest mom when the day comes that you finally get to hold a little one of your own in your arms! You can do this!

Stephie Lynne Purcell said...

It makes me so frustrated and sad that you have to deal with this physical and emotional rollercoaster every single month- yuck! But I'm so impressed with your ability to see your blessings and I love to think about the blessing you are being to so many women who are struggling silently by being such a great advocate for them. Love you so much!