Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Dear Little B

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Grandma and I cleaned the whole apartment today and then did some last minute shopping. When I came home to our spotless little apartment I cried. The smell and feel seem to be such tangible evidence of the change we are about to experience. Then I called your dad and cried some more. Someday you'll see what I mean when I say that even the best changes are hard. 

I'm lying here just feeling you kick and I can't believe that today is the last day I'll feel you moving inside me. I've loved carrying you for 9 months and I love the bond I feel with you as I feel you move and squirm and stretch. I'm going to miss being pregnant. I'll miss the anticipation, the growing belly, feeling your hiccups at least 5 times each day, the funny looks I get when we're out and about, your dad feeling you move when he's snuggling us, and the constant reminder of the miracle you are everytime I see my reflection. 

I feel afraid that tomorrow I won't be able to protect you like I can right now, but also great anticipation to hold you in my arms and to see the look on your dad's face when he holds you for the first time. I want to tell you a few things before you come. I want you to know how much you're loved by your dad, by me, and by Heavenly Father. Sometimes dad and I might seem over protective to you, but it's only because we love you and want you to be happy. I want you to know that you are a beautiful daughter of God. Your worth stems from your divine heritage--not from the ever-changing, worldly perception of beauty or fame. I want you to know that true happiness comes from being true to yourself, to your values, and to what you know to be true--not from following the crowd. I want you to know that you have eternal and unlimited potential and I hope you'll always seek to follow your dreams. 

See you tomorrow little one.



Cambria said...

This is beautiful Steph! What a lucky little lady to have you and Matt. I'm so excited for you guys to finally have her in your arms and to enjoy the blessing you've been working and waiting for for so long. I wish I was close and could come visit and give you a squeeze! Love you guys!

Lisa Adams said...

What a beautiful letter (it made me cry). This is a treasure for your daughter! I wish I'd done the same thing.